Saturday, November 11 2006 [04:00pm].
The Infernal Question:
Answer this, please:
"From an academic and purely technical viewpoint. What is the: Ukitakumuki touch/flourish/look/feel/thing, that so many have come to describe. What makes it different? At least in the eyes of the few?
Clearly, what evokes sensations in someone not necessarily has to set off the same sparks in another, and I so dearly wish to know what it is you guys see in my stuff. The bad, the good,everything... please! What identifies with you, and more importantly, what
defines my work, in your many eyes.
Thanks all,

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An Explanation
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Firestarter
I've recently looked at my stuff over in severe disdain... am I burning out? There are so many ideas in my head just raring to be drawn, painted, pooped.., which according to some of my good pals, is due to 'stifled creativity' because of my conscription/mandatory military fricken servitude to the Republic of Singapore Air Forces and lack of my old formal, slacker, content, [stable] lifestyle. Whatever. The point is that its so difficult for me to get all those ideas down, for some reason. A mental block perhaps? A lack of direction, maybe.
Loosing Focus
Everytime I start a personal piece, it starts with at least 5-6 separate speed paintings, of which each spawns 5 others. I'm sure in that sea of scumpaintings, there are those that warrant saving or a continued, fully explored 'life'... but strangely enough it also points me back to one sad fact I've had to live with, and that is my very unstructured and loose-cannon approach to the way I do my work. Spontaneous, some might call it.
The problem is... the sheer
addiction and nature of speed painting means in the same amount of time it takes a normal-painting to succeed; the speed-painter has probably achieved 4 separate variants of the core theme. This can go two ways: one, you heartily enjoy and relish in the moment of freedom to express, and learn...
...or Two, you feel completely shat because you just successfully took the red pill (or was it blue?) and went apeshit with the idea in your head initially, loosing focus and ultimately, VISION.
Character
Personally and frankly speaking, aside from concept art that I wholesomly enjoy, fine-illustration wise, I always seem to have this evil habit of being impassioned with a certain theme, in the spur of the moment type situations, nontheless.
Then it all falls to pieces with the whole "omg this horse looks.. like a DRAGON.. omgwtf... lets try.. a tail... hehehh- oh look! that cloud.. a neon missile frigate..no..a happy meal." NOW as far as I know, I don't have an attention deficiency disorder... but for those who know me, I am definetely very jumpy and perhaps overly playful with ideas and concepts. Just wondering how things will look, turn out, feel... that is a really intense sensation that always sets me back a little, and I constantly have to catch myself before I go off the deep end on something. And, as easy as I get passionate about something, I blow cold, as soon as I stem my own yearning for that pleasure. Does that suck or what.
Unless guided by a decent Brief, or some measure of vision and direction, I find it hard to make meaningful work. Did I just state the bloody obvious? I guess it does to most of you. Maybe I'm just being retarded at this point in my life. No points for guessing why.
Your imaginary friends.



